Write Without Fear

I want to say I started writing at age 9. I wrote some lyrics to songs I made up. My other writing was short stories as projects for English class. Then at 14 I wrote a short story relating to my life as a teenager, and again at 15 I wrote another short story about a girl meeting a boy kind of thing. I put these away and never looked at them again. Luckily, as I have moved, I have not lost them. One of these days I will reread them and now that I know more about writing might rewrite them better. I don't remember writing anything from 15 to 18. My mom passed away when I was 18. I was very distressed, felt helpless and alone after that. So I started writing my feelings on a 6x8 notebook. I wrote for the next 4 years anything that was happening in my life, mostly things that made me happy, sad, mad, etc. One day, I do not know what got into me that I threw all these notebooks away. I was afraid that if someone should find them, they would read about things that were private to me and I did not want this to happen. In retrospect, this was a very foolish thing to do. I regret this now. When you write, whatever it is, don't be afraid of it being discovered and read, don't let this stop you from writing negative or mean, angry things. You can't always write positively. I have written about events that made me upset or people that made me upset. If they were to read my writing they would know who I was talking about or not. I am not afraid of someone finding my written work anymore. I am, after all, a writer. I will not hold back on writing something for fear of it being found. If someone takes offense to it, I am sorry. I don't mention names, just feelings and thoughts, I don't use curse words, I try to avoid this because I don't like to use them, but if I have to use them to get my feelings or thoughts across, then I do. I use any words that I first write on the paper. For me, it feels good. You never know when one of these or any writings you do might lead to the start of a story.